An unprecedented feeling arose. Curiosity and a little anticipation. However, the fear that our relationship might change also went hand in hand.
I tried to use my strength, but could not control the constant trembling of my body. I didn't want to appear pathetic like this, but for some reason the trembling continued.
“Huh. Ce, Cesar……”
There is a heat buildup inside. I feel confused because I don't know how to relieve this feeling. When I parted my lips, Cesar's lips overlapped again. This kiss was much more passionate than the last. His tongue entered my mouth with an aura as if he wanted to swallow me whole.
“Um!”
Nó đột ngột ập đến như một cơn mưa lớn, dù tôi cố gắng ngăn cản thế nào đi nữa, tôi cũng không thể tránh khỏi việc toàn thân bị ướt sũng.
My mouth is full of saliva. Something hard to tell whose it belonged to ran down the corner of his mouth. No matter how much I struggled and resisted, Cesar had no intention of stopping this action. He persistently sucked my lips and swirled his tongue.
What, does he actually know everything? It's unreasonable for him to say he didn't know anything and put me in this situation. I feel like I'm about to die. It wasn't until his breathing became rapid and his mind reeled that his lips finally let go.
“Ha.”
I tried to breathe heavily after a period of not being able to breathe properly, my chest heaving. Cesar slowly licked around my mouth and smiled.
Ah, what should I do? What should I do? I felt weak before Cesar's smile. Maybe because of lack of air, my mind is dizzy and foggy.
I'm heading somewhere right now. It feels like I'm rushing forward without knowing the destination or reason, a place I've never known. But I think whatever. Nếu cứ thế bước sang một ranh giới tôi không hề hay biết, nếu con đường đó có Cesar đồng hành, chẳng phải sẽ ổn thôi sao.
I absentmindedly thought
ignore fate
, then slowly nodded. I don't know how Cesar interpreted my nonverbal actions, but he started to move. That was the beginning.
At some point, Cesar's eyes seemed to have changed. Eyes filled with enthusiasm were now mixed with aggressive and brutal emotions. The Cesar I knew was gone. Both he and I were filled with heat, now uncontrollable.
“Ah, ah huh. Uh……”
Everywhere his fingertips touched, a fire flared up. Tôi cảm nhận được quần áo bị xáo trộn, nhưng tâm trí tôi đã bị cuốn đi nơi khác nên không quan tâm đến điều đó.
The only thing that caught my eye were Cesar's passionate eyes. In his red eyes, fire burned. That red was even darker than usual, as hot as the color itself. The heat was so much that it made me nauseous.
I can't stand it. Something bubbled up from deep in my lower abdomen, making my body itch. My head is spinning, my stomach is churning. I couldn't stand that feeling, so I clutched the bed sheet tightly.
"Broken."
His lips touched the transition area from throat to collarbone. I slowly recalled old memories. That is, I'm trying to remember what the next step is.
When the husband touches the wife's body, there is absolutely no resistance.
What I can recall is teacher Imelda's sex education class. That's right. According to her, this is a very natural thing. Every couple does things like this. So I had to tell myself that I had to endure this situation.
I try to relax my body according to what was taught. I have to relax and do what Cesar wants. But despite my will, my body kept jerking and bouncing. My mouth kept making high-pitched sounds, and my toes curled up automatically. She said not to move or make a sound.
“Ah, uh, huh.”
However, all stimulation is too sensitive, making it difficult for me to endure it. A shrill sound rang in my ears. Realizing it belatedly, that was the sound of me panting. It feels like the sound of a heartbeat is hitting your eardrum. The pulse beats that fast.
Cesar continued to kiss my body, then growled softly and trembled. The bridge of his nose wrinkled slightly, his mouth opened slightly. Sharp fangs were exposed, and a growl erupted from his throat.
“Ren, Ren……”
The low voice called my name mixed with metallic sounds, sounding like the roar of a large cat animal. Even though he only called my name, his voice had a strange power. I couldn't move, as if bound, and couldn't think clearly. While my mind was foggy, I bit my lower lip, unable to control the feeling spreading throughout my body.
At that time, I remembered Ms. Imelda's teachings.
The lower part of the man has this.
At that time, Ms. Imelda showed me a cylindrical object made of wood. It's about a hand long and fits in my right hand. The first time I saw it, I was so scared that I couldn't sleep for a few nights, when I realized that hideous thing was dangling between a man's legs.
However, I have to do it. Because Miss Imelda said that if I didn't move or resist, this action would end very quickly.
Well then, just bear with it a little. Just a little…… just a little……. I think counting is a good idea. I often count numbers to calm my emotions. Count from one to one hundred. After that, the mind will become clear and calm, and all this will soon be over…….
"EH?"
At that moment, an extremely strange feeling appeared in my lower abdomen. That is, something very hard and solid.
Could it be that Cesar carries a sword in his heart? But that's impossible. He couldn't bring such a dangerous thing into the bedroom, moreover, the outfit Cesar was wearing just now was very simple.
"Huh?"
That thing gradually increased in size. The feeling of heaviness pressing against my navel was unfamiliar.
I had to tilt my head a few times. Something pressed against my body, radiating heat through the fabric. What is this? That is, it is something that cannot be considered a part of the human body. Can the human body become so big and tough?
"……Huh?"
Realization came suddenly and belatedly. Oh my God. I can instinctively know what it is. I just can't accept it realistically. I accidentally looked down, then looked up in surprise as if I had been burned.
That is. What am I seeing, what am I feeling now?
“……”
It is said that when people are so surprised, they become speechless. I am like that right now. My mouth was open because of what happened
great
That's overwhelming.
I recklessly reached down and touched it.
Miss Imelda lied to me. What
fake agency
She showed me that at that time it wasn't this big, this was too much. This cruel reality is too harsh for me.
“Wha, this thing……”
How can this be put into the human body? I trembled like I saw a ghost.
I don't know if it was because of the feeling, but Cesar's eyes were a little red. He rubbed his hot cheek against mine and asked.
“Ren, what's wrong with you?”
Why, why do you ask?
What's wrong with you?
? Does he really not know? But he just looked at my face and asked a very innocent question.
Fear of a completely different level than before came. I slowly shook my head. No matter how you think about it, this, this is not okay. This is not in any educational lesson I have ever studied. I was never taught that I had to deal with this horrible thing in marriage.
"Lace?"
Seeing that my reaction was unclear, Cesar called me again. But I was so horrified by the whole situation that I couldn't move, as if turned to stone.
“……”
"Ren? Are you okay?"
That is, the Cesar I know is not this Cesar. No, Cesar's face was still him, the person I knew... That face was still his familiar appearance, but I couldn't believe what was touching my body and this situation.