I felt my thighs tremble. Because it could not control the tension and fear, it shook violently like tree branches in a storm.
My lower abdomen was tight with anxiety. The chill came so hard that my teeth chattered. Cesar, noticing my abnormality, looked at me worriedly.
"Lace?"
But that voice was too close to my ears. Warm breath entered his ears, making the hair stand on end. Right after that, the sound of naked wetness licking my earlobe startled me.
“Huh!”
“……What's wrong with you?”
He slowly started to caress me. Because the distance was so close, every time he moved his lips, I felt like a feather was tickling my whole body.
The feeling was so strange that my body kept backing away. I felt itchy all over my body and felt hot like a burn, but because it was a feeling I had never experienced before, I felt both strange and strange.
“Sniff, oh……”
If possible, I want to leave Cesar and run away from here. I am not in a normal state. Warning bells rang throughout my body. The pulse is beating fast, the body temperature feels like it's about to boil, and the heart feels like it's about to explode. My body is warning. That this is not a normal state, that I don't have the ability to endure all these feelings, and to run away.
Additionally, that heavy feeling appeared again. I closed my eyes tightly. Feeling like your throat is clogged. I was so afraid of all this that I felt death-like terror.
“Sniff……”
Tears suddenly flowed out. That's the beginning. Resentment, fear, sadness and terror surged, along with unknown feelings. I can't stand these things. So I couldn't control myself and burst into tears.
“Ugh……”
Seeing me shed tears, Cesar seemed startled and looked at me with wide eyes like a rabbit. But I don't have the heart to observe that anymore. I sobbed like a child on the spot for a long time.
“Re, Ren?”
Cesar seemed confused, patting my back and kissing my cheek trying to comfort me…….
“Sobbing, sobbing, sobbing…… I don't know!”
For some reason, those hasty actions made me cry even more. I don't know why I was so upset and tearful, I just clung tightly to his chest and sobbed.
I hate it. I hate Cesar so much, and this situation is horrible. I cried so much that my throat hurt, and the corners of my eyes were so swollen that my vision was blurry. My fingertips were still cold and shaking because the fear had not yet dissipated.
Seeing that, Cesar looked at me with extreme insecurity. Looking at his innocent face, blinking not understanding what was going on, I suddenly felt extremely angry and punched him in the chest with my fist.
“Sniff, you idiot!”
When I scolded Cesar with a face full of tears and snot, his eyes also began to fill with tears.
“Ren, don't, don't cry……”
Seeing him like that, something welled up in me.
“The other day I told you it was good to cry!”
Suddenly, everything became frustrating and unbearable. I gasped, clenching my fists.
"Ah, no, not good. Not good at all."
“Sniff…… you liar……”
Obviously he said that, I remember it clearly. In frustration, I clutched the hem of Cesar's shirt. Finger joints are white. Cesar's hand rested on top of mine. His hand was warm and soft compared to my cold hand.
“I won't do it again, sorry, okay?”
Cesar also shed tears like me. Just like the time I got very angry before. Somehow, seeing him shed tears, the lump in my heart gradually eased. So I buried my face in Cesar's chest and whimpered.
“I don't want to have a baby…”
Cesar quickly responded.
"Yeah, no need for a baby. No need for a baby."
“I was so scared.”
It's the truth. To be honest, this was the first time I felt like Cesar was a completely different person. When I confessed that feeling, Cesar hugged me tightly.
“……Sorry.”
“Idiot.”
"YES."
Now, both he and I, we just hug each other, saying words that have no beginning or end, but for some reason that apology easily relieves the lump in my heart.
The next morning, despite the older maids tidying up our bedding, I aggressively went looking for Richard. I was going to scold him for what he did to Cesar. Of course, Cesar followed me.
“I'll talk to Richard and then go home, Cesar stay here!”
Overwhelmed by my strength, he could only nod with fear.
And I ran straight to Richard, but Richard asked me back with a shameless expression.
“So you didn't do anything after all?”
“That, that thing……”
His expression looked at me with disdain, unchanged, as if he was completely unconcerned about this matter.
“That, that is……”
"Why don't you do it? This is also very important to you."
Richard told me with a very serious expression, as if advising. But somehow, I couldn't tell him to his face that I couldn't do it because
that thing
Cesar's too
terrible
. So, I quietly told him the situation. Richard's reaction was worth watching.
"How disappointing. Human women like that, right?"
“What?”
“
Male genital organs
The older you are, the more certain your chances of conceiving—”
“KETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!”
You crazy magician! I couldn't hear another word from him, so I screamed on the spot.
"What's up?"
Bernadetta, startled by my high-pitched scream, peeked out to look. I quickly shook my head for fear that Bernadetta would be exposed to the perverted words and actions of this crazy magician.
"Ah, no, nothing! I'm completely fine!"
“Sister, your face is pale, are you really okay?”
"Yes! I'm completely fine!"
I deliberately stretched my arms and legs and spoke in a cheerful, bright voice, as if to prove to Bernadetta that I was okay. Richard's sarcastic eyes looked at me, making me feel frustrated.
He clicked his tongue and walked over to Bernadetta.
“Bernadetta, how's your practice going?”
The girl said that she had unlocked her water powers and was practicing creating water drops.
“Now the water drop has grown to this size.”
Bernadetta opened her hands and created a ball of water as large as an adult's head. I don't really know, but isn't it amazing?
“You gathered the surrounding moisture and squeezed it in here. Even magic cannot completely create something from nothing.”
Seeing Bernadetta endlessly telling stories I didn't understand, I proudly stroked her hair.
“Our bunny is amazing.”
Richard looked at that scene disdainfully, asked my permission for a moment and then went into his laboratory. Taking that opportunity, I quietly asked Bernadetta.
"How was class? Is Richard being difficult with you?"
“No, Master is a very gentle person.”
“Richard?”
“If you don't understand something, Master always explains it to you until you understand.”
Richard is gentle, I can't imagine, but Bernadetta's words don't seem like a lie.
"Really? Luckily, I have a good teacher."
“Yes, learning magic is fun.”
Even though he wasn't very good to me, perhaps he was a good teacher in teaching Bernadetta. That's lucky. Actually, when Richard said he would take on Bernadetta, I was more worried than hopeful.
At that moment, Richard opened the laboratory door and walked towards me. He gave me a small bottle.
“Take this.”
“What is this……?”
I received the small bottle and asked him. Richard sighed and replied.
“Healing medicine.”
"Yes?"
"It looks like you will need it often in the near future. This is a medicine that helps heal wounds. The effect will be much better than regular medicine, so keep it."
“……”
I stared at the bottle in my hand, then looked up at Richard.
Bernadetta gently teased me and said.
“See, I was right?”
Hearing that, I burst out giggling.
“Richard……”
I approached the Half-Elf with a cold expression. And before he could say anything, I hugged him tightly.
“Me too, me too!”
Cesar, who was waiting on the side, also joined. Seeing that, Bernadetta also rushed over.
“Ugh……”
As the three of us simultaneously hugged him, this Half-Element's face grimaced seriously. That's natural because he is someone who extremely avoids contact with others.
“Ha ha.”
I couldn't help but laugh.