# 73
In the community, there are very beautiful girls, girls with intelligence and a strong presence, girls who can buy delicious food for Sirius, and girls who care for him more than two homes.
One of them might suit Sirius' taste. So I thought.
Hema: Your thinking is correct, Deyarin, because I am suitable for him >.<
There must be someone who is.
But what Sirius said was only a “hypothesis.”
What if?
But even if it really happened, Dayaren could not easily say “yes.”
"no."
“……why?”
Sirius roared, but Dearyn persevered. Although the wound may be deep now, it would be better to break off the relationship before the attachment becomes too intense.
Even the most beloved must be taught, even though they are not children. She had to guide him to the right path.
“You said that marriage is between those who love each other.”
Sirius stopped roaring and tilted his head, seeming to have difficulty connecting things.
But our smart dog quickly understood Deyarin's words.
“You don't love me, Diarren?”
This was the question she had been waiting for.
Dearyn braced herself and took courage, without hesitation, she drew the sharp sword.
"Yes."
“!”
Sirius felt horribly defeated.
He almost died.
A feeling that could only be described in extraordinary words swept over Sirius.
“Dyaren...don’t you love me...?”
"Sirius? Let's eat."
“Don't you love me...?”
“Oh? Let's eat first and then talk.”
Sirius fell into great shock and refrained from eating.
Even when Diaren tried to put food in his mouth, he would not eat and remained still.
The shock can be severe.
He was rejected by the first person who showed him love since birth.
It may be painful, as if they abandoned him as his parents abandoned him.
Deyarin's feelings were not comfortable either.
But this was a necessary process to make Ceres grow better in the future.
"Oh, our dog is pretty, isn't he? Let's eat, okay?"
“Dyaren...you don’t love me...”
Sirius's look of reproach made Dearyn's heart ache.
If she gave up at this moment and answered, “Yes, I love you, let us get married later, my dear dog,” all her suffering would return to zero.
She had never intended to think like this even in her dreams.
No matter how annoying Sirius's anger and quarrelsomeness were, there was no way he would utter words like that.
'Moreover, what are the consequences?'
Sirius still hasn't forgotten a single word of Deyarin's words.
If she says “I love you, let's get married,” she will be stuck for life on those words and will never look at anyone else.
A person must meet people and gain experiences to find true love.
If you reject the person completely, the chance of finding a suitable partner will become a distant story.
Now was the time for strong determination.
“People don't die without love. Everything will be okay.”
Dearyn said coldly as she pushed the food into Sirius's mouth.
It's okay for him to feel upset or angry, but he has to eat.
"no."
But Sirius, who usually gave in to food, held out this time.
He seems really upset.
But Dayarin had no intention of backing down or surrendering.
When you are vulnerable in moments like these, he will endure more.
"Good."
I looked at him angrily and extended the spoon again.
"Eat. If you don't eat, you'll be a bad dog."
“I don’t want to eat anything from Dyaren that doesn’t like me.”
“…….”
wow.
It was a wonderful sentence.
Our dog seems to already know how to express himself.
Feelings gathered in Diaren's heart, but she tried not to show it.
Instead, she placed the bowl of food next to the bed as if to throw it away.
“A dog that doesn't eat, I won't like it any more.”
“If I eat, will you love me?”
“No. But I still won’t love you.”
“!”
It was unfair, in any way.
Sirius looked like he was going to lose control and cry.
He loves Dearyn so much, but Dearyn doesn't love him.
She even declared that she wouldn't love him in the future either.
He didn't even understand whether he loved Deyarin.
“What is love...?”
What makes love so complicated?
The biggest dilemma in a dog's life has begun.
Understanding formless words was difficult. However, he sometimes felt like he was getting closer to understanding her when he made an effort.
For example, the word “sweet” was a challenge for him.
Desserts are sweet, but what does “particularly sweet” mean?
He still finds it difficult to differentiate the taste of cake between “wow, it's sweet” and “oh, it's delicious!” And “sweet!” and “Surprise, it's especially sweet!”
But he realized that “sweet” and “particularly sweet” are not the same thing.
But Sirius didn't understand what love really was.
“That is not love, that is not love, there is no love.”
While he was expressing his feelings in a strangled voice, his features carried a kind of seriousness.
If it weren't for Deyarin who took care of him and raised him, he might have given up everything, whether it was love or royal documents.
“……What a thing...”
But Dearyn was just shaking her head.
To her, Ceres's philosophical questions about “what is love” were just nonsense.
What is love? It's just love.
Life goes through phases like this.
A period of life in which we begin to give meaning to trivial things and small details.
We decided to call this “adolescence.”
Sirius seems to have entered this phase.
"love…?"
“Here is a boy who loves love. But Diarin is going to eat.”
"no!"
"why not?"
"no!"
“So, why?”
"……no…."
While Sirius tried to hold his ground, he eventually backed down when Dearyn saw that she was holding steady.
It would have been better to ignore the boy who had entered adolescence and had bouts of stubbornness.
He must speak in a reasonable way to have a response.
No matter how many times he repeats “love” a million times, it will never turn into love.
“Prevent talking about love.”
"I don't want."
“Well, I don't like Sirius either.”
“I love Darren!”
“No, Sirius doesn't know love.”
The unbalanced conversation continued, with the average age among speakers dropping by twenty years.
Even Dayaren, who had been ignoring him, began to feel disturbed by the sounds of “love, love” following her everywhere inside the room.
“Love…”
Even when she went out into the living room for a while to drink water, he followed her and talked about love.
“Darren, I love...”
Even when she tried to lie down on the bed to get some rest, he would cling to her and talk about love.
“Dyaren, what should I do to have love...?”
He even followed her to the bathroom door, continuing to talk about love.
"Enough!"
In the end, Darren exploded.
When she shouted once, Sirius looked at her with eyes full of resentment.
Sirius felt wronged, blamed and sad...
When he looked at her, he looked like an abandoned puppy.
“From now on, the word ‘love’ is forbidden.”
“!”
Sirius froze as if he had been struck by lightning.
Dearyn shook her head firmly.
This word should be forbidden, because of it, Deyarin felt exhausted.
There is a lot of instruction to receive, and no single word like love should get in the way.
Thoughts follow words.
If you block the word “love,” those thoughts will naturally fade away.
“Love…”
“Enough.”
Where does he think he can test the limits?
Now that Sirius was just a clueless dog, he knew how to figure things out.
He had surprised her several times today.
Although he is not a child, the dog has grown up quickly.
Dearyn suddenly felt old.
...Maybe Sirius was already giving her some wrinkles.
“Okay. First, eat.”
“…….”
“Don't eat? Then let's study.”
“…….”
Did his words end once the word “love” was removed?
Sirius ignored that and turned his head away.
“Okay, then let's play today.”
Dearyn lay on the couch without paying any attention to Sirius.
Now, whether he was looking at her or not, she felt comfortable and no longer restricted in her actions.
She has completely lost her prestige and status as a priestess.
First, you must live as a human being.
She can't keep wearing the tight priestess uniform and maintain her straight figure forever.
In the palace, she couldn't relax because of the attention, but the situation here was different.
There are no eyes watching her, and she even hides that she is a priestess as well.
Dearyn lay down completely.
“…….”
However, Sirius kept wandering around her, not content to turn away even as she offered to play.
He looked at her intensely, like a hunter looks at his prey.
It made her feel the experience of being the prey in an unintended way.
“Having good focus is good, but... how can I turn that attention into something else?”
Is there something new that could attract Sirius' interest?
Even the games get boring after a few plays.
Just as children always need new toys to entertain themselves, Sirius needed something to take his attention away from Dearen.
Since the setting is a palace, it should be easy to find something exciting.
At that moment, Sirius's head suddenly turned toward the corridor.
"What is there?"
Deyarin followed him with her gaze.
There was a loud sound coming from the direction he looked.
It was not necessary to rely on Sirius's hearing, but Dearyn could hear the voice clearly.
But when she heard him clearly, her features suddenly froze.
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