# 45
My vision turned white from the anger that escalated in an instant.
Oh, this must be what it feels like when Sirius goes crazy.
The saying that there is nothing ahead of you is used in such situations.
“……Mom, are you going to use this money to buy him a pen or something?”
My voice was shaking.
Baroness Brydon blinked when she saw Dearyn's unusual expression.
“Why?”
However, it wasn't the look in his eyes that made him realize his mistake.
She had a puzzled look in her eyes, wondering why she was acting this way all of a sudden.
Because I really don't know why.
Her eyes were surprised because she had no idea how harshly her words had struck Dearyn.
Dearyn's anger, which was boiling in those eyes, faded away as if he had lost his fire.
Deyarin laughed instead of screaming.
“Yes, it would be good to use the money I earned with my life to save my brother’s face. Because his pride is more important than my life.”
“Why do you say such things? But what about life? Why would a priest risk his life for work? It is a matter of gaining the respect of others under the protection of the ruler.”
Whoever has not experienced it does not know the pain of others.
No matter what she said, in Baroness Brydon's opinion, being a priest was a noble profession.
It was Baroness Brydon's pride that her daughter was a priest.
“They say that the governor sometimes asks us to sacrifice our lives.”
"Then you should be willing to give it up. By any chance? Maybe they'll give you more because you look pretty."
Deyarin ended up laughing.
I felt comfortable just laughing at things I couldn't get angry about.
"Oh mom. It's time for me to go now."
“Already? Let’s go and have a meal. Your brother will be here soon.”
“No, I was only out for a moment. I'll come again next time.”
Dearyn hurriedly got up and left the room.
If I held out any longer, I felt like my body would collapse.
If my brother comes, it is better to avoid him and avoid meeting him face to face.
“Dyaren?”
But I definitely encountered such a person.
Of course at the entrance.
"Bro. Long time no sighting."
“……Without culture. Like people from the lower class, what is your brother? No matter what your family is, you have to be polite.”
This is what a person called my brother does as soon as he sees my face.
This is the only thing that comes to my mind when I meet my younger brother who has returned from the battlefield after going through such hardships.
The fact that Dyaren did not dare to call her “sister”
And that he showed no respect to the Baron's eldest daughter was more disturbing than the fact that Dearyn had returned home after almost dying.
"…… Okay."
There's not a day I stop snoring thanks to this guy who's always going to unexpected depths and stabbing people.
“……Young Master Braeden, you have reached a high level.”
Deyarin returned to the new building with a straight face.
Am I this person's sister? I didn't want to have that kind of title even if it meant death. It's been this way for a long time.
My brother immediately exploded in anger.
"You……."
“I'm busy announcing the governor's will, so I should leave now. Then.”
“Dyaren! This attitude towards your brother…!”
Since my brother was speechless, my mother, who was watching, became angry on his behalf. While he was carrying the bag of money that Deyarin handed over to him.
Dearyn walked out the door without looking back.
Every time I came to this corner of the house, I saw something bad at least once.
It is so filthy and disgusting that you will never look at it again.
However, Dearyn knew very well that she would come again.
I hated myself so much.
* * *
“Shall we stop the car?”
“……No. Please go directly to the palace.”
“Yes, I understand.”
Deyarin looked out the carriage window at the lively street.
The world that had been sparkling with joy until I left the temple sank into gloom.
It was covered in black and white bruises, like a world submerged in water.
“I buy candy!”
“This is all rotten!”
However, the image of a harmonious family passing candy into a child's hand has passed.
“Oh, you're beautiful!”
Parents clap while placing wreaths on their heads.
Why are people flocking to the streets so happy?
How can we live while giving and receiving love in this way?
My heart was full of tears.
For fear of being out of her sight, Dayaren had to bite her lips tightly until she reached the palace.
The carriage passed through the festival streets, through the city center, and finally arrived at the main gate of a secluded palace.
“Shall we go inside?”
“No, I'll get down from here.”
Diarin got out of the carriage and started walking towards the palace.
I thought looking up at the sky and getting some fresh air would help me feel better.
“Ah ah…….”
But I'm completely wrong.
The corner of her mouth that had twitched as she walked finally collapsed when there was no one around.
“Huh…….”
Diarine cried bitterly.
Tears fell.
I walked, wiping my tears with both hands, like a child who lost his mother.
Let's just cry until we get to the palace.
That's how sad I am.
I cry while walking, but as soon as I reach the palace, I wash it off with warm water and shake it all off with a fresh heart.
Dearyn, the heartbroken daughter of Baron Brydon who has been pushed aside by her brother all her life, is only there until she arrives at the palace.
When we reach the palace, we must return to the priestess Dearren.
Because priests have no family or status.
You can live your life remembering to love the ruler instead of your mother.
There is still a long way to go to the palace.
After crossing the mountains and passing the lake, it took a long time.
Therefore, you can still cry.
“……Oh?”
However, Deyarin's tears did not last long.
“Master Sirius……?”
“Dyaren.”
The palace was far away, not yet visible.
The palace was far away, not yet visible.
But Sirius was standing in the middle of the road leading to the palace.
Dearyn rubbed her teary eyes, wondering if she had seen something wrong.
Even when I wiped away my tears, Sirius was still Sirius.
You came to my senses.
“Why is Master Sirius here?!”
Dearyn ran over and examined Sirius' hand first.
But Sirius' hands were white. There was not a drop of blood to be seen.
Fortunately, it seems he hasn't killed anyone yet.
“I heard a voice.”
"…… Yes."
Dearyn suddenly stopped his loud movements.
The person who will be killed is me... me?
M.M.: She said that because the sound of her crying was loud, so she was afraid. Sirius became upset with her and went out to kill her
When I shed tears, water overflowed my body, but now suddenly, my body was completely dry and there was no saliva left to swallow.
Dearyn looked at Sirius awkwardly.
“I cried out loud for… huh?”
Are you really going to kill me?
If you look so pathetic, won't they let you live?
Dearyn put on her most dignified expression.
However, Sirius's expressionless expression did not even falter.
……Is it destroyed now?
I think I cried a lot today because I wanted to die.
Sirius's answer fell on Dearyn's desperate head.
"no."
“Huh?”
Dearyn raised her head again.
"I heard a sound. Didn't you run out because it was loud?"
"no."
"…… then?"
“It’s the sound of Deyarin crying.”
“……?”
I was confident that I could now interpret Sirius' words to a certain degree.
But it seems there is still a long way to go.
Even after hearing what was said, I didn't understand it correctly.
However, Dayarin tried to understand.
“You came running because I was crying?”
“Huh.”
M.M.: Hah means yes according to Ceres
“Why?”
“…….”
At Dearyn's question, Sirius's eye movements became busier.
As if I could find the answer if I looked around.
But there was no way to find the answer in his heart.
Of course, Dearyn couldn't look into Sirius' mind either.
“Didn't you like something?”
“……Hmm…….”
"Am I disturbing you?"
"no."
I expected it to be about 120 hills, not 20 hills.
But I'm used to finding answers one by one like this with Ceres.
Dayarin's patience had grown to its peak.
“It's not noisy. Were you surprised?”
“Hmm……huh.”
“Oh, did you think something had happened because I was crying and you came running towards me out of the blue?”
I barely got the first answer right.
But it seems it wasn't the second time.
Instead of answering, Sirius cocked his head to the side.
“Hmm…….you heard me crying and was surprised, so you wanted to make sure?”
"no."
It is true that I was surprised, but I could not guess what happened next.
In amazement…….
……Just surprised?
“You were so surprised that you didn't know you were running?”
Sirius thought about it, then nodded.
“……It was so.”
Only then did he seem to realize that he had been caught off guard.
Just like when you lose your temper, you attack without even realizing it.
He said that he came running when he heard Deyarin crying.
“Huh? Why am I crying?”
“……I think so.”
Dayarin was so surprised that she burst out laughing.
What are you saying?
Did you run out frantically upon hearing her cries?
“Ah really. What should I do? Have you tamed him? Ha ha ha ha…….ah.”
An obsession that contrasts with a family that does not value anything, no matter how good it does.
She suddenly felt Diarin's eyes hot, so she covered them with her palms.
My eyelids twitched in my palm.
“……Oh really. Sorry. It’s loud and unclear over there in the palace. I’ll go when I calm down.”
There was nothing I could do about shedding tears on my own.
Dearyn gritted her teeth and moved her legs to throw herself deeper into the forest.
At least I tried not to cry when Sirius was around.
“Darren, you’re excited.”
“……Oh?”
Dearyn sniffed and looked at Sirius.
I had obviously fallen a few steps, but Sirius was right in front of me again.
“……?”
This time, truly puzzled, Dearyn looked at Sirius.
Then Sirius extended his arms.
“?”
Many question marks appeared in Deyarin's mind.
But before she could find an answer to that question, Sirius' arms pulled Dearren to her.
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