I almost laughed out loud. But now is a very important situation. Besides, I can't smile in front of Cesar crying like this. So I coughed for a few hours. At all costs, I must not reveal that the knot in my heart has been removed.
“Isn't it because Cesar has been acting strangely?”
“Am I strange?”
“Yeah, very, very scary.”
Immediately, his eyes drooped again. Tears welled up at the corners of my eyes, then rolled down my cheeks.
At that moment, I felt dizzy. What exactly is this feeling? A thought suddenly flashed: something wasn't right. Subconsciously, I felt like I did something bad to him.
Is it reasonable to scold Cesar, when he doesn't even understand why I'm angry? Actually, I can't tell the difference.
“S-Sorry……. Sniff……”
But he still swallowed his tears and apologized to me. After that, he tried to hug me carefully, but then realizing something, he only dared to hold my fingertips, as if he was touching something fragile.
He didn't dare touch his finger, just carefully grabbed the tip of my little fingernail with both hands, then shed tears again. In that moment, I realized many things.
He is afraid of being rejected. Thinking back, ever since the curse fell, he had also been continuously despised and rejected. He was really afraid that I would turn away.
Maybe he also knows. Except for Mercedes, no one has ever gotten as close to him as I have. And now that Mercedes is no more, the only person who communicates with him in this world is me.
Seeing that scene, what little patience I had left shattered.
“Cesar, come here.”
I couldn't do anything but hug him tightly. I feel like I can't help but hug this lovely Prince, my lovely husband.
When I pulled him into my arms, Cesar couldn't hold back his overflowing sadness and burst into tears. He cried like rain, making a "Ho ho" sound.
Thinking back, this was the first time I refused Cesar. When I felt I had moved his emotions, a strange joy rose in my heart.
At first, our relationship was clearly nothing. I had no right to refuse him, I just decided to tame him to survive, and I did so.
It's clearly not an easy task. Furthermore, it is almost a one-way communication. It has always been my role to be patient, to lead him to the right path.
And Cesar is the opposite. It was always his role to reject me, show his fangs, and push me away.
Yet, our relationship changed like this. It has reversed. Without me, you would be insecure and cry to this extent. You are so weak to me.
That truth is both pitiful and makes my heart ache, choking me with emotion. At the same time, the feeling of completely owning him made a feeling of joy well up in my heart.
Therefore, I need to hug him even tighter. If I had to name this feeling of joy, it would be satisfaction.
The satisfaction of penetrating his weak side. The cruel hope that without me, he would surely collapse. And what follows is a thorny feeling of guilt.
I know this feeling is not right. But I still accept it happily. That alone is enough to make my heart swell and my chest ache.
“So, don't do that anymore, okay?”
He sniffled and nodded. I quickly took a handkerchief to wipe his face.
“Come on, blow your nose.”
"Heh heh. Heh."
After wiping his face smeared with tears and snot, a cute, pure Cesar reappeared. For some reason, after Cesar cried, he became even more beautiful.
He looked at me for a moment then spoke.
“Can't do that?”
"Huh?"
“Why not?”
“That……”
I didn't know what to say for a moment, so I blinked a few times. Come to think of it, we are husband and wife. The fact that he wanted to do that with me, after all, was natural and natural……
“N-No way, no way……”
“Don't like kissing?”
Faced with that blunt question, I lowered my head because I didn't know how to answer. Thinking back, every day we kissed each other's cheeks in bed, a rather intimate act.
“N-No way……”
Therefore, I gave my refusal in an uncertain, hesitant voice. At that moment, I saw Cesar's invisible ears and tail appear again. They drooped, drooped down completely.
"Really?"
He asked again, making a corner of my heart soften. So I just nodded vaguely. I don't know how he understood that vague signal, he immediately rushed at me.
I felt him lick my chin cautiously. Seeing that I didn't refuse, he kissed my cheek. Acts very carefully but doesn't seem to stop.
His lips touched the left cheek, then the right cheek. Then the tip of the nose, forehead, then eyelids. He seemed like he wanted to kiss my entire face.
Our eyes met. Cesar, who was sobbing in front of me just now, now looked triumphant. Maybe he thought I forgave him.
“I, am still not angry yet……”
Therefore, I said a sentence that even I found absurd and hateful.
“Still angry?”
However, Cesar still acted mischievous and hugged me. He clearly knew that I was no longer angry. I pouted and grumbled.
“Yeah, still angry.”
“Don't be like that.”
Having said that, Cesar buried his face in me and rubbed. The tickling feeling made me laugh.
Finally, we looked at each other and laughed out loud.
“Let's go home now?”
"YES."
Cesar held my hand and helped me stand up. We held hands and walked slowly. When we arrived at Luc Ngoc Palace, Delfina was waiting for us.
“I made food but it's probably cold now.”
I smiled awkwardly, Delfina smiled gently.
“The food was wrapped in cloth and placed next to the fire, so it's still warm.”
"Really?"
She opened the cloth, and indeed the scent of food stimulated her taste buds. The dish made from pork mixed with organs, eggs, and Taralli kept being fed into my mouth.
“It's really delicious.”
The rich, fatty taste of pork brain blends with the salty taste of salt pork dancing in the mouth. What about Taralli? Dipping it in honey and taking a big bite, I felt the taste of well-toasted bread. The crispy outer shell hurts the palate, but chewing it a few times blends with honey, creating a rich and sweet taste.
Her dishes contain warmth. Even though she clearly knew something was going on with us, she didn't ask anything and simply served the meal. Perhaps because I appreciated that concern, I ate more deliciously than usual.
In the end, we had to lie down and pat our full bellies.
“So full!”
We kept saying 'I'm so full!' and crawled on the bed like lazy people.
Cesar ate three more plates of eggs. Of course, he used knife and fork expertly.
Our table was sumptuous, and when my stomach was full, I felt everything was fine. I just closed my eyes, praying for this feeling of warmth and fullness to last forever.
After that day, I was especially careful so that Cesar wouldn't lose control again.
“The reason he suddenly became strange was because I didn't let him drink blood……”
I cut his skin almost every day for him to drink blood. Especially at night, he looked at me with longing eyes. I didn't need him to say anything to understand what that look meant.
“Cesar, come here.”
Today too, I pulled him onto the bed and lifted his skirt. As I was pondering where to make the incision, a nervous Cesar put his lips on my knee first.
“No, don't do that.”
I firmly stopped him, he lightly licked my calf with an expression that he couldn't stand it anymore, then looked at me again. I slowly shook my head.
“Wait a minute.”
This action may seem strange at first glance, but for me, it is very important. Especially the initiative in donating blood is in my hands.
I slowly took out the small knife attached to my belt. The knife had been sharpened every day. As soon as it touched my knee, I felt a rush of heat.
I closed my eyes.
"Alright."
Hearing me say that, he couldn't control the desire he had suppressed for so long and rushed in.
He gently licked the wound, then started sucking hard. Every time that happens, my body trembles.
The tip of his tongue stimulated my wound. It slid over my knees, making me aroused.
“Ugh……”
I groaned again and looked up at the ceiling.